Time to Say Goodbye
Dearest loyal blog readers,
It is with a heavy heart that I announce that after 3 long years of slow but patient blogging, "C]-[[_]]\[GY s@ys" is finally shutting down.
Over the recent months there have been a few incidents that were brought to my attention. It is to my realisation that some of my blog readers are upset or worried about me.
I certainly do not wish my readers to make general asumptions on the kind of person I am, based upon my posts. Note that some of my more "heartfelt" materials are but my way of expressing my artistic side; not expressing my problematic or psychotic side.
I certainly do not wish my readers to feel offended regarding my posts. I realised different people have difference tolerance level; different sense of humour, and many more whom do not wish to disclose much about themselves. I believe most of my loyal readers enjoy reading my blog because I reveal alot about myself as well as my genuine feelings. It seems this has proven to me my kryptonite, ironically.
This blog started off as my personal journal for memorable events, a place where I can speak my mind. Now it seems with much limitations + rules + law etc... This blog has lost its true purpose. There is no joy in blogging simply to entertain.
As a final note: "C]-[[_]]\[GY s@ys" will remain as it is now. I feel that there are simply too many memories within to simple just delete everything. This blog practically summed up my university life, my growth to young adulthood covering more than 3 relationships in my lifetime.
Thank you everyone for supporting me over the years. Do keep in touch.
THIS IS THE END FOR ME, BUT NOT THE END OF ME.
Chung Fui, Chong
11 Comments:
Are u really closing down ur blog? *sob sob* =(((((((((((
It's been years since I began reading ur blog, and definitely I'm one of ur very loyal reader, dun I? It's indeed such a pity to hv know that u've decided to stop sharing ur thoughts on ur blog, for whatever reasons that you may have. Anyway, I do respect ur decision and sincerely hope you are happy with the decision you've made :)
I came to know u through your blog, and am forever glad tat we became 'blog buddy' since then. Hope you will not forget this 'blog buddy' of yours and do continue to visit my blog, if u feel want to :)
All the best to you in ur life and future, and may God continue to bless you abundantly and shower you with more eternal blessings and goodwill in your life. Take care, my friend :)
p/s : Wondering how come we never add each other in MSN despite knowing each other for yrs? Haha..perhaps we shud hv some nice chat over MSN someday,ay? ;)
Rgds,
Allysa
allysa: yeah... i must say i feel really sad for closing down my blog, but recently alot of things happened which made me think maybe i should... i dunno... i will definately miss blogging and sharing my thoughts... who knows... maybe someday i will open a new blog, but limit the people who read it... ^^"
yeah, i still remember the time when we first became blog buddies... i stumbled upon ur blog by accident and we encouraged each other using mandarin... ^^
comon... ur making it sounds as tho im dying or something... stop it... or else im going to start crying... hahaha...
anyways... god bless u too and all the best in future... ^^ do keep in contact, i will still be visiting... ^^
ps: i think we did add each other in messenger... dint we? ^^"
Yea, it's really saddening to know tat u're going to close down ur blog, as I never expect it to happen,at least not at this time =P However, I believe u will hv ur own reasons of doing so, and indeed, sometimes our freedom of speech are restricted by means of some limitations,rules and law..it's tiring at times. Sometimes, I do wonder if I 'shud' or 'shud not' post up a post, considering d effect it might hv on other people's feelings etc. Well, let's just say we can never satisfied everyone in d whole world.
I still do remember all those times we used to leave encouraging comments on each other's blog, comforting and inspiring each other in time of needs too. It's such a good memories and I'm amazed how our friendship cud developed thru d world of blogging. You're one of the fren who seem to really understand me and what I'm trying to express in my blog, though the fact tat we never really get to know each other very well :) Not even face-to-face,ay? *haha* I realized now I seldom blog in Mandarin as well..hmm...
Haha~ Did I sounds like talking in a funeral ceremony? =.=" Nolarrrr, I guess I'm really 'bu se de' for such a good blog buddy like you to leave d blogging world ma..I'm gonna miss ur post really much ^^ If u cry, I'll cry too!! *haha* Honestly, I did teared a lil' upon reading this last blog entry of yours =(
*typical emo-ing me :P*
ps : I dun think so, cos I never had ur contact in my MSN..or perhaps u hv too much frens on ur list liao? Haha..Ironically, I hv Shaun's MSN on my list =P I cant remember when did we added each other even! *haha*
allysa: the thing is, i've always enjoyed posting random stuff... stuff which im mostly proud of, which usually involves people close to me... however one realises not everyone shares the same "openess" as i do... also, i realised its not always good to be too open about my heart in case someone tries to hurt me intentionally... (not u of course... ^^")
yeah, i was quite taken by ur mandarin posts, usually so emotional it really sums up what i really want to say... i guess its because i feel for ur words so much that i keep returning to read ur blog...
i guess its not our time to meet yet gua... =P im sure its sometime in the future... god knows...
i'll probably start blogging after my degree is finally over... then i hav time to reorganise and restart my blog - its a new beginning in my life too... if i do, remind me to make it a private blog... ^^"
ps: my msn messenger is chungfui3000@hotmail.com, do add me... ^^
Oh no!!! Cham lo..then I read what during my lunch break?
wendy: nice to know im ur lunch time entertainment... sadly... im afraid u'll hav to occupy urself with something else for now... try sudoku... -_-"
Yea, sometimes it's indeed hard to express our emotions freely when you'll think of what others will think about you. If you hv actually realised it, I hv been gradually decreasing my usual 'so-very-emotional' mandarin posts lately as I feel that there are times I revealed too much of my personal thoughts and feelings, which possibly caused the discomfort of others. I used to really blog out of my heart, expressing all that I feel/think about...Then again, some ppl judged me(not you,of cos:P) and started to comment on me(negatively sometimes). So, I feel rather uncomfortable to open up my heart and share. I truly understand how you feel.
Then again, I tried to put my blog as private blog, but found tat it's not convenient for my frens and regular reader to keep have to log in to read. So, I re-opened my blog for public, but changed the style and way I write on my blog - less emotional post though =P Yet, I cant help but naturally I'll tend to be writing in a more emo-ing way..haha
Anyway, now I'm trying to stay the way I used to be in my style of blogging - freely express my own thoughts and feelings...and what matters most is writing from a sincere heart. I believe my readers will surely feel it too :) I think you should too ;) Just blog the way you used to be, I really miss reading d good old 'emo-ing' posts you wrote last time that really touched my heart *haha* I tend to keep coming back to read your blog, bcos I feel for your words too, and it's being true to yourself in every post you blog that really matters :)
p/s : if u really open a new 'private' blog, remember to add me on ur reader's list,k? =P
allysa: i nvr held back what i needed to blog because i believe it is my own personal space n i can say whatever i desire... im not afriad of being judged as well, n hav always welcomed constructive comments...
however, tho im not afriad of being judged, i m quite wary of what others think of me n how others feel... i understand some people might hav discomfort but they respect my views... even so, i feel i might hav insulted them in a way... partly its being concious and considerate for them... partly so i can sleep well at night...
that's why i refuse to set my blog as private blog... because if my loyal readers can find the heart and take the time to read my blog... then the least i can do is to provide easy hassle-free access to my material... why should i create trouble for so many, for so few?
most of my emo post... i have to say... r emphasised... alot of emo stuff like poems etc... they might not neccessarily be 100% true but it is a moment of inspiration that i which to capture... the right feeling at the right time using the right words... n i think this is what my blog is all about...
some people have shown concerns (perhaps not touched by the way as u have), but believing that i might hav seriously hurt myself or fallen into depression, hence needing special attention... i wish clarify that its not the case...
some cases are much simpler: they are like... i dont like u blogging this n that about me... say this about him and her... some people must understand, i could hav easily be a difficult person n defend my rights to blog whatever i desire... but i decide to take a generous step back instead, being the gentleman who avoids any further conflict....
Hi Chungy,
Thank you for sharing your innermost thoughts with us through your beautiful blog. Yes, please let me be on your list of blog readers allowed for your new blog! (Which I'm quite sure you'll be tempted to write again!)
Your blog fan, Jerlynn
jerl: wah... my blog fan... i feel so... honoured... ^^ will definately notify everyone thats on my current blog list/link... ^^
hey chung fui, aww, I didn't check ure blog for a bit and there you go and say it's shutting down =(
If you don't remember me I was that girl whom you had lunch once in Bangsar Village coz she had wanted to go to Oundle for 6th Form =). Even though it's been the oddest reason to know someone I've always found your blog really insightful.
Hope you have a good life ahead and mayb someday you'll return.
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