Comfort Zone
Tossing and turning in bed for the last few hours, I realised I just can't fall asleep. So, naturally - I began to wonder why.
"Is there anything bothering me? What's wrong?" I asked myself.
The answer was: "Nope, everything's OK in my life now. Just to make sure, let me do a check list..."
Dissertation ===> CHECK
New Term Preparations ===> CHECK
Part Time Work ===> CHECK
Family ===> CHECKING
Friends ===> CHECK
Personal Fitness ===> CHECKING
Leisure ===> CHECK
Love Life ===> DOUBLE CHECK
So, where did it go wrong? The ridiculous but most possible answer dawned upon me. Perhaps over the years I've suffered a turbulent and eventful life, always living on the edge. So for once, if my life reaches a state of calmness and peace: I get worried - worried that something bad awaits me around the corner. I know its depressing and sad, but its the horrible truth. I've been through so much constant shits in my life that when I settle down on a comfort zone, I get nervous. How ironic.
Maybe its the end of my sorrows? Maybe my life of soon-to-be epic greatness is about to take flight? Who knows. Lets see where this leads to, shall we?
10 Comments:
there, you've got double check in ur love life..so no worries! everythin will b alrite...=> hugzz
junie: love conquers it all konon... ^^
u sound like me u eternal pessimist..are u scorpio btw, coz the horoscope says its time for the sun to shine...=)
and i agree with the love conquers all..haha
christina: im a capricorn btw, so wat does da horoscope say bout capricorns? ^^ yes yes... so far love IS in fact conquering all... ^^
hey..
Glad to know tat u're leading a great life now, with 'double check' on love life somemore ;) Always be thankful to God for His blessing and trust in Lord that He shall provide you with the best. Take care
allysa: yeah... i know. but i juz cant help this creeping feeling dat trouble is around da corner... oh well... i'll deal wif it when it comes around... ^^
Pray n leave ur worries to God =) Come what may, I guess you'll definitely be able to deal with it already ay? Anyway, think positively and maybe this time around life is really treating you greatly ^^ Happy for you ;)
allysa: problem is i've always been so good at dealing wif problems, then there is no problem; an aura of calm n peace engulfs me... i feel... rather too safe to be feel comfy... hehehe... but yeah, i'll leave everything 2 god... ^^
ps: i've wrote so many emo posts whilst ur gone... so much dat people complain my blog too emo wor... hope u like them lar! ^^
haha..u know i've always love ur emo post =) however, i realized that u seldom post sad emo post anymore..nowadays, ur emo post are more to warm n sweet ones - esp the one regarding midnight nightmares =P Anyway, not bad for a good change ;)
so many things happened during the times when i was away from blogging - i dun really know how to put into words already. Anyway, I believe things happened for a reason =)
allysa: yeah... u know me... i blog according 2 my feelings... so frm my posts u can really tell wats up wif my life... ^^
yeah... i think things happen 4 a reason too... ^^
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