Tae Kwon Do

I still remember a long time ago, in the Tae Kwon Do (Korean matial art) school in Sekolah Kebangsaan Bukit Damansara (SKBD): there used to the youngest black belt in class. He started training when he was 4 and was a 1st dan (1st degree) black belt when he was 7. They nicknamed him "chili padi" because he was thin and dark. He was to represent Wilayah Persekutuan to Tae Kwon Do tournaments in Terengganu, but his parents refused to let him travel by himself at such a young age. He moved on to gain his 2nd dan black belt when he was 13 successfully, but also managed to gain 20kg successfully too. It din't stop him from his dreams in taking 3rd dan, but due to shortage of professional coaching, free time and other commitments such as his academics which eventually made him give up - storing his uniform in a drawer. This was 6 years ago.

Yesterday, he was browing through You Tube to release stress from his exam revision, and he came across a Tae Kwon Do video (as currently displayed in my blog). The video was the long awaited key to open the vault which was hidden away all these years. His blood began to boil; adrenaline began pumping through his body: it suddenly brought back all those memories from his training. He missed the feeling of pain as well as inflicting pain; the feeling of sweat and/or blood pouring down his face, the satisfaction of breaking planks, bricks and/or bones. He longed for the ecstacy of puting on that prestigious International Tae Kwon Do Federation (ITF) uniform and fasten the knot of his black belt once again.

He has decided. Over the summer when he returns home: it is time to revisit his master... Perhaps even try to achieve his long abandoned dream of achieving 3rd dan. The slumbering Chong "chili padi" Chung Fui has been awaken once again.

Temper Temper...

Temper, is a dangerous thing. God know I've got this trait from my mother. Curiously, if nobody triggers my temper (it takes alot to trigger my temper, at the right moment at the right time), I'm as happy go lucky as a clown in the circus. Basically, I've got a high tolerance before I lose it, but when I lose it - God rest his/her soul. Amen.

For example, I still remember this time last year. I was revising for my exams in the library and then my friend mike and I went to the nearby shop to get something to eat. I waited outside for him, having a cigarette. 3 scally white boys (1 older, 2 very young) approached me. For you people out there whom doesn't know what scallies are: they are a degenerate form of culture in UK, very dominant in Manchester, involving underaged teenagers wearing matching tracksuit top and bottom, a matching hat to cover their skin head. They usually appear drunk or with dreamy eyes as if they were/are on drugs - like the picture below. Anyway, this was what happened:

["We juz luv 2 sit ere' all day long doin' nothin'..."]

Old Scally: (Saw me having a cigarette) Ya'rite mate, can I crash a fag?
Me: (Tired and already in a bad pissed off mood) I haven't got any cigarettes.
Old Scally: *Pointed at my cigarette*
Me: Well, I'm not giving you one.
Old Scally: (Started walking away then suddenly shouted) Fuckin' chink! Should've smack rite on his face... Blah blah blah...

At that moment, my temper was triggered. My eyes widened, I took a last puff of cigarette, and then I flicked the butt at the old scally. It landed on his back.

Me: Oi, asshole... What da fuck did you say? You wanna say dat at my face? You fuckin' coward.
Young Scallies: OOOooo... (They kept on walking)

I hate being ignored. I wanted to run up to them and hurt them bad. I clenched my fist so tight that they were making cracking noises. But I told myself to keep my temper. I took a deep breath and cleared my mind. I was picking a fight. A fight with probably a 20 year old and 2 15 year olds. They are not "pai kuat" thin and they weren't the type thats defenseless. But the rage has blinded my eyes. Thank God I managed to calm myself down.

But the point I'm trying to make is: sometimes losing your temper can leave permanent scars in life. The easiest example would be the remnant on my right arm. That's the result of losing my temper.

I guess the moral of the story is: control your temper to avoid making mistakes you will regret in life. Yeah, in my case. I could've ended up in jail. =P

It Seems I'm Addicted To These Stuff Lately

I'm bored, I guess. Don't mind me, it's stress release from revision. Quiz courtesy of VSS3T!

INSTRUCTIONS:

Copy this whole list into your journal. Bold the things that are true about you. Italic the things that you are unsure or partly true. Whatever you don't bold is false.

THE QUIZ:

1) I miss somebody right now. [Mostly family & friends from home.]
2) I don't watch much TV these days. [I've watched more since exam period started. =P]
3) I love olives.
4) I love sleeping.
5) I own lots of books. [Spent so much using my own hard-earned wages! =(]
6) I wear glasses or contact lenses.
7) I love to play video games. [Still young at heart. =P]
8) I've tried marijuana. [It was a long cold depressing winter night...]
9) I've watched porn movies. [Who hasn't?]
10) I have been in a threesome. [Whoa... Slow down...]
11) I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. [I hope not...]
12) I believe honesty is usually the best policy. [But honesty has let me down many times as some people don't appreciate honesty these days.]
13) I have acne free skin.
14) I like and respect Al Sharpton. [Siapa tu? =P]
15) I curse frequently.
16) I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. [Thanks to a few life changing experiences.]
17) I have a hobby. [Who would believe... Cooking?]
18) I've been told I have a nice butt. [I have a flat arse... =(]
19) I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. [Nah, my fists and intimidating looks are quite enough. =P]
20) I'm really, really smart. [I wish!]
21) I've broken someone's bones. [By accident... Of course...]
22) I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. [Who doesn't?]
23) I hate the rain. [Brings back memories...]
24) I'm paranoid at times.
25) I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar free. [Liposuction included? =P]
26) I need money right now. [Not desperately, but could do with some.]
27) I love sushi.
28) I talk really, really fast. [When I'm nervous.]
29) I have fresh breath in the morning. [Sorry, I don't sleep with Listerine in my mouth at night.]
30) I have semi-long hair.
31) I have lost money in Las Vegas.
32) I have at least one brother and/or one sister. [Jackpot... 1 elder sister; 1 younger brother.]
33) I was born in a country outside of the US. [Not everyone comes from the US lah.]
34) I shave my legs.
35) I have a twin.
36) I have worn fake hair/nails/eyelashes in the past.
37) I couldn't survive without Caller ID. [Apa tu?]
38) I like the way that I look. [Could lose a bit more weight.]
39) I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
40) I know how to do cornrows. [Apa tu? Corndogs?]
41) I am usually pessimistic. [I'm too optimistic.]
42) I have mood swings. [Usually happy-go-lucky.]
43) I think prostitution should be legalized.
44) I think Britney Spears is hot.
45) I have cheated on a significant other in the past. [Never cheat; never will.]
46) I have a hidden talent. [I believe so, but not exploited... Yet...]
47) I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. [You got that right!]
48) I think that I'm popular. [Depends where and when and with whom.]
49) I am currently single.
50) I have kissed someone of the same sex. [Never!]
51) I enjoy talking on the phone. [Hate it, I think I have a phobia...]
52) I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants [I live in jeans and T-shirts.]
53) I love to shop.
54) I would rather shop than eat! [Rather eat than shop.]
55) I would classify myself as ghetto. [Nah, I'm Chinese and I'm proud.]
56) I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders. [Sweaters are not my kind of fashion.]
57) I'm obsessed with my xanga [I use Blogspot... And I'm not obsessed.]
58) I don't hate anyone. [I never hold grudges.]
59) I'm a pretty good dancer. [Give me the right tunes. =P]
60) I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington. [Who cares?]
61) I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. [I'm proud actually, it's when she nags I'm embarrased.]
62) I have a cell phone. [DUH!]
63) I hate my girlfriends' ex-boyfriends. [What's there to hate?]
64) I watch MTV on a daily basis. [Only in Malaysia.]
65) I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. [Responsible enough to never have done so.]
66) I love drama. [Depends.]
67) I have never been in a real relationship before.
68) I've rejected someone before. [Was flattered, but not my type.]
69) I currently have a crush on someone.
70) I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. [I have to decide real soon.]
71) I want to have children in the future. [As many as I can support! I want a large crowded family =P]
72) I have changed a diaper before.
73) I've had the cops called on me before. [Nearly.]
74) I bite my nails.
75) I am a member of the Tom Green fan club. [Siapa tu?]
76) I'm not allergic to anything. [Used to - prawns. Not anymore.]
77) I have a lot to learn. [Hell yeah!]
78) I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger than me. [Nah... But apparently my friends say I'm likean "auntie killer". =P]
79) I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
80) I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes. [Not really. Tend to just be myself.]
81) I'm online 24/7, even as an away message. [I'm online, but away most of the time.]
82) I have at least 5 away messages saved.
83) I have tried alcohol or drugs before. [Welcome to UK.]
84) I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past. [I think it's evil to go after friends' ex.]
85) I own the "South Park" movie.
86) I have avoided assignments at work to be on Blogger.
87) When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbour or chum. [Apa tu? Rather play hide and seek.]
88) I enjoy some country music.
89) I love my best friends. [Love and cherrish them to bits.]
90) I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. [Dominos rule!]
91) I watch soap operas whenever I can. [Ewww...]
92) I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist. [Tried to be, not anymore.]
93) I have used my sexuality to advance my career. [I'm not that capable. =P]
94) I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. [Love his songs more than his scandals.]
95) I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story". [Don't know what's that.]
96) Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. [I don't like candy anyways.]
97) I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
98) I have dated a close friend's ex. [EVIL!!! NOOO...]
99) I'm happy as of this moment. [Not really, could do better.]
100) I have wet dreams.

21 Things A Girl Should Know About A Guy

It's actually quite lame. I find these sort of things so pointless: as if one or two sentences are enough to sum up how a guy is like. If everyone in this world are confined to these attributes then this would be a dead boring world. Here are the lists. It was 30 before from Nicko's blog, but them some of them were so lame I just din't have the heart to even display them here. Still, I thought it might be interesting to read

1) We're not as pervert as you think we all are.
2) We like you to give us hugs and kisses sometimes too.
3) Don't play around with us - what goes around comes around.
4) We know you're pretty, that's one of the reason's we're going out with you.
5) Don't go into detail about your period. It scares us. If you have cramps and we ask you what's wrong, just tell us it's that time of the month and nothing more.
6) We never shave our legs. So get over it.
7) NEVER ask us if you can put make up on us. It's just wrong.
8) Don't make bets or compare us, because one of your friends will tell us, if you don't.
9) We may not be able to pee accurately all of the time, but at least we can stand up and go pee. Plus we never need to queue to pee.
10) Just cause you think you're always right, doesn't mean that you don't have to apologize when you do something wrong once in a while.
11) You expect us to say and do sweet things for you, but it would be nice if you did the same every once in a while. We like to know that you love us too.
12) We can't always be spontaneous, so help us out sometimes.
13) Don't ask us to beat up another guy for you, because you might get what you wish for.
14) Never kick us in the nuts just to see what we would say. That's just mean.
15) Never pretend like you are going to break up with us and laugh when we believe you.
16) PMS is not an excuse.
17) Don't tell us how cute your ex-boyfriend was. That doesn't turn us on.
18) And always remember: The way to a guy's heart is through his stomach..... and maybe .... oh, never mind.
19) NEVER ask us to kiss other guys. You might be that comfy with your friends, but to us it's just wrong.
20) We always notice how funny it is after you rip out our heart, stick it down our throat and still want to be friends.
21) We know you're not always right, but we'll pretend like you are anyway.

I asked myself, how true are these statements when applied to me? Let me see...

1) Well... I'd be lying if I said I don't feel horny once in a while, but I tend to keep it to myself.
2) True.
3) Very very true... Hence I've never ever played around with anybody's feelings.
4) Again, I'd be lying if I disagree... But its only one of the reasons. It's usually their heart that touches me more.
5) Erm... I suppose no harm knowing, but we really don't wish to indulge in these sort of topics. I know it's only natural, but I feel slightly uncomfortable.
6) I don't have alot of leg hair to start off with anyway. =P
7) Maybe if I'm in the mood and they ask nicely. Just maybe. =P
8) One should be happy with his/her partner. Comparison is just unfair... Like how parents compare their children with other people's children. Absolutely hate it.
9) If I'm not confident peeing straight especially in other people's property... I tend to sit down. Sad, but at least no one else has to wipe the seat right?
10) It has become such a stereotypical thing for the girl to lost temper and the boy to appologise. Times have change. People change. I for one, will not appologise if I have done nothing wrong as I believe in equality.
11) Recently, I've lacked the initiative to do nice things to girls... Rather just let it happen. My theory is: if she likes you enough anyway... Present... No presents... Makes no difference. Still, when in a relationship, lil' but meaningful presents are great. My greatest present for my girlfriend would simply be my undying dedication, loyalty and sincerity which money can't buy. Not everyone cherrishes these kind of things anymore though.
12) I like spontaneous things to happen; BUT... I automatically tend to plan things ahead of time. Perhaps it's because I don't like to be caught off guard when unexpected things happen. Don't like to lose my cool in front of the girl if you know what I mean. =P
13) Though 180cm with muscular built enforced with years of various martial art training: I seldom resort to violence. Unless, someone threatens my loved ones... I will unleash hell upon them.
14) All I can say is: it hurts... BIG time. I still have desire for children, so don't. =P
15) Like I said, I never play around with other people's feelings. It's just inconsiderate. I won't tolerate being played around with.
16) Absolutely. What happened to self control?
17) Think: do you like us telling you how pretty our ex-girlfriends are? I din't think so.
18) Easiest way to my heart... Hrm... Just be who you are and aprreciate me the way I am.
19) I will NEVER... I repeat... NEVER... Kiss another guy.
20) Maybe its a girl thing to boast about how they dumped their boyfriends. I don't know, but it's certainly not funny.
21) One thing girls never ever do in a relationship: when we guys make mistakes they are never tolerant... So when it comes to us, why should we be tolerant then? Partly because we want to impress the girl and not upset them... But also because we love you.

A Word of Advice

Trust me, then it comes to advices... Nobody beats my mother. A day can't pass without a deep insight of one of her meaningful yet annoying "advice for life" type of advices. Of course, after 21 years of nagging the same thing again, who wouldn't find them annoying? I know them all, but to put them into practice, that's slightly more tricky. =P

Recent years, I've found this advice very very useful. It goes like "you might think its other people whom doesn't understand or see your point; but sometimes, its you that can't understand or see their point".

Of course, there is also the case where, "there is no point arguing whose right or wrong, because everybody's point of view has a point - only how valid are they that counts."

Let me pass on this word of advice to you people out there. Hope it helps you... Or just ignore and treat this as blabering gibberish.

University of Manchester Malaysian Night 2006

It was a great night. 4 performances by yours truly, plus a lil' bit of acting as Ah Beng. In fact, its been 2 years in a row, I play Ah Beng.

This year's performance was more memorable than last years. Last year, nobody knew me. After the show... I just went straight back to the changing room and packed. Although I did go to dinner with those people, but I just felt really left out. This year, it was different.

I think during practices, I bonded with everybody very well. I began to notice genuine smiles. The Indian dancers - including moi, were so confident with ourselves we really impressed the crowd that night. After all the performances, it was hard to say farewell. This... Is another of those emotions, I never thought I could feel again.

Oh well, maybe I'm turning a bit soft these days. Perhaps I'm just getting weary from the fact that I know I'm going home soon. I guess its about time someone started chipping away the ice that froze around my heart.

PS: Will post pictures of my performances up soon, gotta deal with my exams and essays first.